Friday, April 19, 2019

The Day I Died

It's been a while since I have posted an update here...

 I've gone back and forth on whether I wanted to share this with the Kinky WORLD..
But I truly believe in speaking My TRUTH... SO here goes...

On April 14th, 2019 I went to emergency room thinking I had a upper resp infection.. when i 1st got there the Dr also thought it was a upper resp infection kinda stabbing pain in my left side back so gave me a breathing treatment.. Next thing I know i felt really dizzy and everything went black...

So, I Died... Yeah.. totally nuts huh?!?!?!  I was shocked 3 times and given CPR and came back after being dead for 3 mins.. I woke up with a nurse giving Me Mouth to Mouth which totally freaked Me out so i pushed her.. they was yelling don't push the nurse then I was trying to sit up and the other nurse doing chest compressions on me pushed me back down and they told me to lay down then I looked to my left side and the nice sweet doctor was holding those shocking paddles in his hands and said welcome back you Died...


Was taken to ICU and they did a heart cath in my right wrist and found My heart had a blood clot and that part was 100% clogged so they took out clot and put a Stint in... other ones are 60% or worse and couldn't be touched so they have a game plan... Same time i find out i have diabetes.. what the heck can be next?  so they are giving Me 15 medications for My heart  .. mind you I went in ER taking ZERO medications ... I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AGAINST MEDICATIONS...

They said they was sending Me home with a LIFE Vest I have to wear 24 -7.. I'm only to take it off 5 mins a day.. it will shock me if I die again.. I have Sudden Cardiac Death.. that's what its called.. Blows My Mind.. So i wear the vest for 3-4 months....Then they are Giving Me a Pace Maker...

 I am still trying to process all this ..I'm so sore and bruised from them doing chest compressions on me and i have burn marks on my boobs where they shocked me 3 times..

  It has changed My Life and Everything.. Everything is different and seems different..

The Dr and others have asked Me if i saw the bright white light.. No i seen total darkness and  I musta been going to the Hot place..

Dr said if had happened some place other than in the emergency room My family would be making My Funeral Arrangements.. I feel lucky!!!!

I am doing everything the Dr's want me too..

 I'm Home..

I love all my close friends and family that knew what happened all along.. thank you for everything you did and all your support and love... MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME.. I love you all...

I decided to share this with MY Online & Kinky family and friends as well.. I love a lot of Ladies in the scene .. I've been in it for 29 yrs.. so I know a lot of people.. and Adore you ALL..

I also love everyone in My Huge MUSIC family..

 I love My Loyals who are so devoted to ME thank you for your support and love and gifts.. Mistress adores you..

So I will be relaxing..

but i will still be around being amused and adored and of course well served..
 I am  accustomed to being treated like a total Queen that I am.

I will NOT Tolerate anything that Stresses Me Out..

When I lost My Mother Dec 2017 it really did a number On Me..

I am Going to do everything I need to so I live a LONG LIFE...

 I figured I would write this so I could tell everyone in one swoop..

Don't PITY Me .. I'm a STRONG WOMAN..

I'm sure someone will be a asshole making comments.. I do not even care..

But I keeps it 100%

I'm so Thankful to Be Alive.. I'm going to be happy and live life to the fullest..

What Doesn't Kill you makes you Stronger..

Tuesday, August 14, 2018

Lounging like the Goddess I am - My 3 Favs - Fall

    It's so far has been a year of Lounging like the Goddess that I am... and You Spoiling Me all Up.. I snap My Fingers and you come running to Please Me..Step it up tho, there is always room for improvement.. I will give love/mention to my 3 loyal owned pets, Lexy, Mariner, and Wormy.. Keep making Mistress smile.. You are so lucky to be Mine.. which reminds Me.. I did place one under consideration... but he only lasted 2 days lol.. truly pathetic.. I get a lot wanting to be considered, but I'm very picky... Most do Not make it through 30 days... Let alone 90 days I require before I will even consider Owning.. Just makes Me laugh... 2 days LOL.. Anyways,. I so love that Fall is coming soon.. My Fav season.. the leaves changing... the clothing... leather... boots... everything fall !!
 I know there are others whom have served this year but I guess you didn't do good enough to get a mention from Me.. Try Harder..
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Monday, January 1, 2018

Happy 2018

   Happy New Year!  Hopefully this is a way better year than 2017 was... way better!

I have created Lots of New things for you devoted slaves to do and take part in for the new yr.,

Now you can subscribe to
to see things i will not release in public.. you have to be a member to see inside.. I like discretion..

I also opened IWANTCLIPS & IWANTPHONE stores as well..
even texting & quick simple tribute option..

You can also always reach me on twitter direct messages

or send a introduction subject email to

Thursday, October 19, 2017

So I've been Thinking...... Mistress PSA


  I'm sure some of you have noticed I don't post as much as I did in years past... there has been reasons other than you slaves not being deserving.. the main reason has been because every time I open My Mouth someone is using My Words as their own... giving  me no credit of course.. claiming my words and experiences in the scene as their own.. the plagiarism and copying shit annoys the fuck outta me.. can you not be original? seriously...

 After months of not being as open as I was in many yrs past  I had a convo with someone..
I keep hearing how intimidating I am... and slaves are afraid to approach me.. LOL... ANYWAYS..

 I figured it was because some of you have watched me on a site drain my slave's wallet of 1000's of dollars a day for months.. several times a yr...and also having him send to other Domina's I like... its nice to make your friends smile.. anyways that's what i hear is some of the reason slaves are saying I'm so intimidating and brutal LOL.. bunch of wussies.. anyone who knows me knows i know each slave is different and I work with slaves who approach wishing to submit.

I do not assume everyone is a money slave who can afford to spoil me My Good Boy Mariner who we are currently celebrating our 1 yr anny of me owning him.. or my good girl Lexy I've owned since 1998..  It's cute if you try to compete lol ... but I'm realistic. I also have been a Pro Domina since 1990 and do more than just financial domination, as it is just one fetish.. each slave has a place and position in my life.. after 27 yrs i can afford to be picky whom i give my attention and time too...

With all that being said.... I will be posting more on here about my experiences and thoughts on the scene for the last 27 years and into the Future.. Real Time and Online.. It was explained to me that when you are a legend people are going to copy you and want to be like you..example... like Led Zep in music industry... copying their songs.. even having cover bands playing their songs.. so I'm GOING to post more and more about My views and life as a Pro Domina... because who better to be a role model for the newer Dominas coming into the scene..

 PLUS Me posting and staying two steps ahead of the copying frauds.. slaves see and notice things.. they notice the copying.. who do you think comes and tells me? slaves!!!! DUH...

 I also hear constantly how we seasoned long standing Dominas are tired of turning our heads to non sense and harmful things being brought into the scene.. if we say something, they call it shaming.. If no one says anything and we keep turning our heads the scene wont be here for us anymore.. those who have been around realize that a few peoples selfish and disturbing actions destroyed the old yahoo rooms we loved so much.. so no one can say a few bad apples can't ruin things for everyone.. because we have seen it happen before.

slaves are also complaining about the new comers entering scene.. the slaves can see and can tell whats going on they're not stupid.. they can tell the difference if someone knows their skills/trade or faking it for a fast buck.. I could go on and on for days..

 but the reason for this post is to express some thoughts and to inform the masses I will be more open and inviting lol again.. I also hope people stop using my words and copying me, figure out who they are ..and stand out for who themselves on their own merit.. and using their own words and thoughts..

I also hope it will stir the long standing Domina's to stop turning their heads to things we see happening in the scene before one bad apple ruins it for everyone...

what ever happened to discretion? that's a topic for another time..

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perhaps surrender & serve
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Saturday, September 9, 2017

Fall Under My Spell - Did Ya Miss Me or What?!?!

Fall is finally upon us :)
Boots, Leather, Oh My..
Lots of New things for those who make themselves worthy..
Beg Me in Private...
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